TEN YEARS PAST

How can it be ten years past

All the times, I thought they would last

I was younger a time, waiting for life

Thinking eternal, chances were rife

The angst of youth, kept me at bay

The wrong things to do, forget what to say 

Rising too high, a trip to planes

Faces put on and the things I feigned

Wanting to fall, maybe in love

To far up to fall from above

Waiting to have it, I already did

Beneath layers of life is where I hid

I carried it with me all along

The paths I’ve taken had been wrong

Why didn’t I see it ten years ago?

I’ve been here waiting for myself to let go
Kept waiting for the changes to come

So Tired of being angry and numb

I’ll travel to there and stop over here

Keep running into all that I fear

Another drink will pass the night

But merely enhances the inner fight

Lost in the song, can move the mind

Deep in the lyrics is where I can find

Some meaning to follow something to guide

Ends up being somewhere else to hide

The learning comes, new places to tap

Won’t stand out here, can’t take the rap

Too many here to remember the names

The ones close by still handing the blame

Let me sleep on it, start it tomorrow

Within the out, some things I’ll borrow

Get up, get out, nothing has changed

Let down, let in, not rearranged